For the four days leading up to my return to the office this week, I tried very hard to be in the present. I did not waste precious time weeping and wailing about the fact that so soon my leave would end. I focused on my breath. I looked at the Squish, and I mean I really looked at him. Not my (typical?) kind of looking during which I am also planning dinner, a summer vacation, an online diaper order, an exit strategy from our over-scheduled and hectic lives here. I indulged in the afternoon ritual during which he nurses and then sleeps on my lap while I hold him. I meditated while I nursed him at bedtime, and I imagined that I would find the time to meditate in my office when I went back to my day job.
Then came the big day.
Posted by Momma In Training at 5:13 PM